Incredulous Tales, Magical Music, and "Ladies of the Evening".....

It all started at the Tyrone Wells/Jason Reeves concert...

No really...it did. There I was enjoying the show with Bekah and Vienessa when these two obnoxiously loud "ladies of the evening" decided that they were going to seduce their way backstage at the concert to "talk" to Jason Reeves...(heh..) News flash girls...I'm sure he doesn't want to "talk." He doesn't know where your "goodies" have been...lol So anyway, They start yelling at the security guards telling them that they need to get backstage to talk to Jason and that they should let them in because the "lady of the evening" wearing the red and white striped shirt is Jason's girlfriend....(again I say "heh") Well, they're carrying on in a cacophonous manner further disrupting Tyrone's beautiful song. So I turned and yelled at them to shut up. One of the "ladies" says "are you talking to me?" and I said...yes...I am...you're extremely loud and I can't hear Tyrone sing, all I hear is you yelling...so could you please shut up! You're rude! HAHA...seriously...

Well, I think I scared these girls because after the security guards broke up the spectacle, I went and stood up against the wall with Bekah and the "ladies" kept trying to sneak their way backstage, but saw me standing there and kept walking away when I would look at them. HAHAHA!! Basically, there were more words exchanged and that was that. However, I noticed that these girls had moved on to Keaton Simons. HAHAHAHAHA!! Seriously...the "striped" one was now hanging all over Keaton, holding his hand, playing with his hair and rubbing her boobs up and down on this senseless man. Maybe he was too into it to realize that she was using him to get to Jason backstage...LOL!! because the second Jason came out she dropped him like a hormonal teenage boy drops his pants on prom night! No joke!

I stood by with my friends and watched as she tried to convice Jason Reeves to spend the night and go surfing with her. She also tried to molest his ear and neck...poor guy! He had the deer in the headlights look plastered on his face. He was so uncomfortable. LOL Right then and there I decided that Jason Reeves should hire me as his body guard. I can take care of girls like them. Anyway...so I pretty much lost my voice after the show. It was probably from having a yelling match with these girls. It's like the curse of the do-gooder! HAHAHAHAHAHA!!! So, that's my story....the end!

Coffee, Comedy, and Procrastination...again...

So, I’m sitting here in Homebrew attempting to work diligently on my Senior Project, and I realize that the guy next to me just up and moved all of his crap because I answered my cell phone. News flash everyone…this is a coffee shop, not a library, I CAN answer my phone. I wasn’t even crazy loud. People need to stop hating. Hating gets us no where in life…it only makes us angry and cynical…I should know. Back to Homebrew….so…they have frozen yogurt here. More than that, they have frozen yogurt on top of a waffle with fresh fruit. No joke…it’s legit. Of course you too can have a fruity waffle topped with frozen yogurt for the small price of your first born child. Yeah, it’s a little expensive. Something like $8. But remember, to a poor college student that can’t get enough work, this means something! Because of this, I did not end up having the waffle frozen yogurt fruity goodness…I settled for a coke. Aside from my fizzy refreshment, there is also a group of comedians who are about to use the area 2 feet away from me as a stage for their Sunday night comedy show. How did I become so lucky?! I mean…comedy night at Homebrew?! Really?!! *sigh* Oh…did I mention that I am currently sitting on part of the stage? Yeah…I am. It just keeps getting better doesn’t it?! If they use me in a joke…it’s over for them.

Loss

Incurable brokeness
strangles life leaving
gasps of memories
unable to survive the pain

Head, heart, soul
bleeding painful drops of sorrow
soaking my eyes
dripping down my reddened cheeks

Scarring my skin, my heart
details of hurt
grasping at heart's desire
leaving emptiness...
loss

Where Was I?

I have a question...

Where was I when God was handing out lives? Was I in the bathroom? Was I too busy checking out the hott geek standing next to me? Or maybe I had my nose stuck in a book. Which ever the case is, I somehow wasn't available for the fine pickings. I can truly say at this point that life just doesn't make sense to me. I am completely in shock at the way things have turned out. How is it that we can wish, dream, hope, pray for something wonderful, but it just seems that it's never going to happen?

I want to believe. I want to believe that there is something better out there. That I haven't been completely forgotten. It just becomes increasingly difficult. Now more than ever I need serenity. I'm not sure how much more my lifeless hollowed out heart can take. It's empty. Maybe it will become a petrified rock. Solid. Hard. Cold. Maybe the rest of my body will give way to the inevitable. It will slow down and become nothing. Nothingness sounds good right about now. It's painless. I don't need the pain to know that I'm alive. I'll take seconds of nothingness. It will compliment my loneliness quite well.