Thursday, November 3, 2011

He Can't Keep Up...

What does it mean when someone says, "I can't keep up with you" or "You need someone who can keep up with you"? Should I take that as a compliment or be completely insulted? What it says to me is that I'm not what you want; I'm not what you need. I'm ambitious. I'm outgoing, fun, friendly, independent, I know what I want. Does that scare you? Would it be better if I was quiet, withdrawn, and anti-social? I dunno...

Wednesday, August 17, 2011

Helpless, Broken

my mind swims with thoughts
unable to sort them
images of your face before
before it took over
before it stole your youth
before it stole your body
before it stole your mind
overwhelming they choke the tears
choke the cries forming at the back of my throat
deep breaths bring no relief for the pain
whispers of prayers linger on my lips
fighting to make their way to G-d's ear
no sound...inaudible movements
Aba...HaShem...Avinu Malkeinu...
hear the cries of my heart!

Did You Know...

Did you know...
that I love you?
that you saved me?
that I'm not sure if I can live without you?

Did you know...
that I'm scared?
that it hurts when I think about you?
that I don't want to lose you?

Did you know...
that I'm a coward because I can't tell you?
that the thought of you not in my life steals my breath?
that I hate knowing you're in pain?

Did you know...
that you're my only daddy?

Did you know...
that I love you?
that I love you?
that I love you?

Did you know...
that I'm sorry?

Monday, May 2, 2011

Let It Go

You hold it tight,
Suffocating the beauty
Laboring to grow.
Afraid of the possibilities:
Hope of an everlasting promise.
Fear taking root,
Growing deep within your heart.
Apprehension, a new bosom buddy.
Let it go.
Breathe it in...
The change in the air...