He Can't Keep Up...

What does it mean when someone says, "I can't keep up with you" or "You need someone who can keep up with you"? Should I take that as a compliment or be completely insulted? What it says to me is that I'm not what you want; I'm not what you need. I'm ambitious. I'm outgoing, fun, friendly, independent, I know what I want. Does that scare you? Would it be better if I was quiet, withdrawn, and anti-social? I dunno...

Helpless, Broken

my mind swims with thoughts

unable to sort them

images of your face before

before it took over

before it stole your youth

before it stole your body

before it stole your mind

overwhelming they choke the tears

choke the cries forming at the back of my throat

deep breaths bring no relief for the pain

whispers of prayers linger on my lips

fighting to make their way to G-d's ear

no sound...inaudible movements

Aba...HaShem...Avinu Malkeinu...

hear the cries of my heart!

Did You Know...

Did you know...

that I love you?

that you saved me?

that I'm not sure if I can live without you?

Did you know...

that I'm scared?

that it hurts when I think about you?

that I don't want to lose you?

Did you know...

that I'm a coward because I can't tell you?

that the thought of you not in my life steals my breath?

that I hate knowing you're in pain?

Did you know...

that you're my only daddy?

Did you know...

that I love you?

that I love you?

that I love you?

Did you know...

that I'm sorry?

Let It Go

You hold it tight,
Suffocating the beauty
Laboring to grow.
Afraid of the possibilities:
Hope of an everlasting promise.
Fear taking root,
Growing deep within your heart.
Apprehension, a new bosom buddy.
Let it go.
Breathe it in...
The change in the air...
Acceptance.
Love.
Happiness.
Forgiveness.