Stay...A Letter to My Beloved

Beloved,

Stay...

I sit here so filled with emotions that I don't know where to begin.  I guess I can start with this...I love you.  I love your smile, I love your eyes...the way they pull tight when you laugh.  I love your heart...it's always so willing to give.  I don't know what I'm going to do here...without you.  My heart feels the loss of you.  So great and deep....it's become all consuming.  I'll smile if you need me to.  I'd do anything for you...but know that I will feel incomplete when you leave.  I asked you..."what about me?"  You seem to think that you're easy to replace.  My beloved...you are not.  There's only ever been you.  How do I train my heart not to ache for you?  How do I convince my fingers not to reach for you?  How do I tell my mind to stop thinking on you?  How?  The heart is a very deceitful thing...it does what it wants.  It does not listen to my pleas.  It does not wish to give me peace.  It knows what it wants.  It wants you.  Please....please....please....stay....please stay.  

please....

Forever yours,

*J

You're Leaving

it hit me like a 2x4 
rendering me breathless...
you're leaving.
taking the best part of me with you
empty room, empty heart
my eyes swollen with the memories of you
spilling over...one by one
telling the story of you and me
my fingers ache to touch you
my ears long to hear your bass filled voice
your soothing tone puts my fragile heart at ease
the unsaid words sit resting in the back of my throat
begging to be heard
my heart beats a steady rhythm of
stay...stay...stay...
I should have said it...a million times over
...I love you, I love you, I love you