A Letter

Beloved,

There are truths that I wish I could tell you. Things that I've always wanted to say. Words that linger on the tip of my tongue, threatening to give me away. I wish I was as bold as I claim to be. This would be so much easier if I was. I would sing the words and make them sweet like honey, dripping from my lips, to your ear. I'd tell you that I love you. I wouldn't be afraid. Because I do. I do love you. The ache of my love burries itself deep in my chest. It comes to life when I see you. Listening to your plans, and wanting more than anything to be a part of them. Why do I torture myself this way? Because I couldn't imagine my life without you at all. I would rather be in complete want for the rest of my life than be void of your friendship. I saw you today. It was wonderful to see you. Yours is a company that I would love to keep everyday. I love your sweet smile. It says more about you than you know. It makes you warm and open, which I know frightens you. I stared at your hands while you read a book. They seemed strong and well worked. They've changed over the years. I would give anything to hold them in mine. To feel the kindness and strength that emanates from them. Your eyes are happy and beautiful, pulled into an almond shape. They are dark, yet bright. I would give anything to see myself in them, and know that you only have eyes for me. I could go on and on counting the ways in which I love you. They would never cease. I would wake up and begin, throughout the day and evening making lists, and as I lay myself down to sleep, I would continue in my dreams. Know that you are beautiful. That your heart is none like any I have ever seen. Your heart is what I covet...your love. You are intelligent beyond belief. You are worth it. You are worth my heartache and my longing, and you are worth the wait.

Faithfully yours,

*J

Rain

The rain falls rhythmically outside my window,
Thoughts of you dance to the sound,
entering my mind with grace and precision.
The low throaty sound of your laughter,
rising and dipping, filling my ears and heart.
The exact shape of your mouth
as the ends curve up into a half-moon smile,
become my favorite form.
The rain reminds me of you.
The surprising way you grip me.
The down pour of your beauty floods my heart.
I have no choice but to love the rain.
The water is falling harder from the sky,
creating a passion so enduring.
I want to stand in it and be drenched by you,
completely soaked through, to the bone.
Wash over me, renew me with your intensity,
Bring my senses to life.

Maybe You Should...

Maybe you should shut your mouth
Maybe you should kiss my ass
Either one is ok with me
I'll give you the tape
I'll pull down my pants
Anything to help you along
Maybe you should ask me first
before you spread your lies
or force your opinions
I didn't ask you what you thought
I don't really care what you think
You can hate me all you want
If that makes you feel better
But keep it to yourself
Don't flood my ears with words of reflection
They've had their fill of you
So maybe you should shut your mouth
and maybe you should kiss my ass
Either one is ok with me

Consume Me

Why does he move that way?
Slow thought out and sexy,
Capturing me with his stare, innocent yet planned.
The force of his eyes hold me there.
The dark brown pools of his soul.
Everything he's ever felt,
Everyone he's ever loved,
Every moment that has made him laugh...
or cry
is stored in the safe-house of his eyes.
I want to be there.
I want to be his favorite secret...hushed,
quiet, in the recesses of his heart.
I'd love him the most...
deep, strong, unending, and pure.
Wild and wreckless, confident and secure.
I want to wrap myself in the blanket of his love.
Alone, just you and me...
Tell me you love me...
that I'm the only one that you want to share your tomorrows with.
Let your love lift me up and break me.
Leave me shattered by the beautiful energy of you...

It's Been A While....

I know, it's been a while! What can I say...school sucks! HAHA! Just letting you all know that I'm still alive. Busy, but alive. I'll be back....(hehehe...)